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Let your sun be lit

I could never say everything I feel deep inside;

I used to cry out my feelings night after night.

What can I do, if I’m born with these scars?

I used to stare from the down up at stars.

Living for half, breathing for half –

It’s like stumbling over road — it’s tough!

It’s tough to live always on medicines,

I’m so tired of the clinic scenes!

I couldn’t speak and play with my peers.

My heart was full of baseless fears:

To be revealed, abused and be pushed;

To hurt them and be misunderstood.

I used to dream and my dreams seemed so far.

And one day I felt became full my jar –

I became tired of these thoughts and myself.

So, I put that self on the memory’s shelf.

And I stop whispering again and again.

And I stop shouting and crying under rain.

And I stop this self-pity that brings no gain.

So, while it’s not too late, I stop this pain.

Yes, I have HIV and it left in my life its trail.

But I’m a simple person and can’t live like in a jail!

I’m a human being, who wants to make some friends,

Meet my love, solve the problems in daily routine sands.

If you are like me and reading it.

Please, let your sun inside be lit.

You’re not guilty and not plague,

Your life and personality are not fake.

When by time I let my fears go away,

I felt how long and bright is still my way.

I found everything and everyone I wanted,

All the circumstances and troubles I daunted.

Please, let yourselves be happy with open heart,

Put this life on yourselves and don’t be cut.

From a grass to an ocean in this life all is swirled around

You are part of this world. Find yourself and your sound.